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August 16, 2008


This makes me think of two things-

My wife recently read a book that talked about the brain map of the body. It takes a while for that map to remake itself. I can't remember the name of the book but it might be an interesting read.

The other thing is that it is a good thing that children have a more elastic mind than adults. Seeing both you and Chloe in the pictures makes me think about how much my kids have changed in the last couple of years. Kids just adapt to the change. We adults struggle with the change. I am not sure why.

So let me get this straight. Either all those years you were a thin, fit man trapped in a fat mans body or now you are a fat man trapped inside the body of a thin, fit man.

Perhaps you should go for a ride and try to sort things out.


Way to go, Scott.

The same thing happens with age.

I sometimes see a reflection of myself in a window or something, and I think, "Look at that old guy'"

Then I think, "Oh crap, that's me".

Where did the young guy with the dark hair and beard go?

I look an awful lot like my dad. Not that he was a bad guy or anything, I just never planned on looking like him.

I keep my eyes averted around mirrors.

There is nothing like seeing yourself as an old person to bring on thoughts of mortality.

Hey Scott,
Long time reader but never posted before. All this makes sense to me perfectly well. 300 plus pounds in 2 years 8 months is incredible, truly. Look at all the people who do surgery and lose pounds and have no idea at all how to eat properly (because the work was done for them essentially). It's no wonder they plateau and then re-gain it----their minds were not only NOT prepared, but those people themselves did NO work in the process whatsoever! I think Amy nailed it perfectly---your mind just needs to catch up, but it certainly understands what has happened. After all, it along with your body DID do the work.
Knowing a little about the Bicycling Magazine story---what a complete shame that those poor misguided folks are yet again going to screw over their readership by having a bunch of Dieters and a Surgery Patient instead of the one guy they should have, YOU! In my opinion that article should begin and end, and everything in between, be completely about you and no one else period, end of the story. Truthfully, you should be on their cover. When it comes to what a Bicyclist is, you REPRESENT. I cannot believe they had the chance to have you and your story and they blew it by BSing you, wanting to cattle call screen you along with diet people and a certain, ummmmm asshat weight loss surgery patient and then twist their article to feature that guy----a guy who claims he only needed weight loss surgery to halt a thyroid condition, and that somehow that surgery and its implications ceased in his weight loss when cycling then popped up and kept taking his weight off (yeah, I have some insider information on that bullshit and know exactly how he worded his interview to Bicycling and how they bought into it). Like Bicycling and that guy are scientists and know where the effects of weight loss surgery end and weight loss from cycling begin???!!!! What a complete crock of shit I say. Best part of all that is, you've lost more weight than him and I'd bet next months salary that your Labs (blood work, etc) kick his square in the ass----not to mention, you'd smack him HARD in a race.

Sorry for the ramble, but I had lots to say and it was about time I posted. Somewhere at night I know you are out there riding the roads---and I smile and say to myself ""Scott is gettin it on and gettin it done. He's showing us all, it can be DONE""
Keep doing what you do----you're a genuine Hero and a true inspiration among the common people.
Spokes(John Santos in NYC, NY)

We have a lot of recovering overweight people who come in to talk bikes. A lot of them may have been 300, 400 lbs, etc, but now they've lost a bunch and are about my size (200ish). They often ask questions like "can this bike support somebody as heavy as me?" as if they're still several hundred pounds overweight.

I'll second "pedalwest's" thoughts, but with a twist.

Our parents come to inhabit us in amazing ways. If we open ourselves to staying aware, old age -- or any other noticeable body change -- needn't be totally scary.

I look a LOT like my mom (z"l), with her long legs, gently mischevious smile and the shiny flecks of gray now appearing in my hair. On the days I worry about getting older, her presence in the mirror is a little scary. On the days I miss her the most, finding her in the mirror is a comfort.

I also remain my own person through the choices I've made for myself, especially in my refusal to live a totally sedentary life. My calves are more muscular than hers ever were, my heart and lungs are stronger, and I have a resting pulse in the 50's when I wake up in the morning. My sedentary, two-pack-a-day mother never knew such a feeling of health and vitality, even on her best days; and nearly every time I swing a leg over the bike I think of the choices SHE made that were so different from mine. I am sorry she did not live to see the person I've become.

Mostly I find it's about staying aware along the way, as you are so clearly doing. Hold the ones you love close by, and for heaven's sake keep riding. If we just pay attention, life can be so sweet.

Thank you for the comments, All.


"When you look at your reflection in the bottom of a well, what you see is only on the surface..." -Joe Walsh

I studied mechanical engineering in college. There was a mechanical drawing class we had to take that required you to be able to draw 3D objects in 2D. You take a plane perpendicular at any point and you can transfer the points to gain a different view. Our instructor liked "the dog view" because it was lower and typically unseen by people for any object. Just imagine looking at a table form the people view, then think of what a chihuahuah sees. Imagine "a big toe view" of you at your largest, and then imagine that same view now. You said you couldn't see legs or feet, but the flip side is your big toe couldn't see chest or chin or nose or haircut. It's just interesting to take a subject and check it out from a different angle. So when you look in the mirror and have a little trouble with the image, think about all the other perspectives of the same object, not just the straight ahead reverse image. You know that the mirror image only exists on the 1/100th of a millimeter of the outside plane on that one piece of glass. It has no idea of the depth of the object in it.

Try to get to know the guy in the mirror, you worked hard to change yourself into him. Not everyone can say that they have improved with age.

I totally agree with you, I’m now committed to losing weight and have been noticing the waistband getting smaller and clothes getting a looser but when I look in the mirror I still see the same person. I’ve been receiving compliment recently from people saying they notice a difference and have trouble accepting these comments because I did not see these changes myself when I look in the mirror.
That was until yesterday, I did my first Bungee jump and looking at the picture afterwards I could really see a difference. Perhaps it was the adrenaline filled experience that made me truly present at that moment and I was able to see myself for who I really was.

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